Farewell old me
Back in February, in my first blog post on this site, I mentioned that I’d be releasing a track called “Brand New Me”.
Brothers and sisters, the time has arrived.
I typed a little rant on my twitter after uploading the song today sharing my thoughts regarding this particular track and it’s release. For those who missed it (and for my own future reference) I shall do a recap here as well.
Long story short..
Since a young age I’ve had the dream of becoming a world famous rap artist. My motivation? The same as most young aspiring rap artists: the money, the recognition, the admiration, the respect, the women, the cars, the mansion, etc.
Throughout the years, I also did genuinely want to provide a better life for my loved ones. Even though this was the foundation for my drive and passion, it was most often clouded by the aforementioned and quite self centered elements.
The past 10 years of my career have been eventful to say the least. I’ve experienced a rapid rise to stardom and just as swiftly fell into complete obscurity. I’ve found myself boasting in victory as well as drowning in the agony of utter, humiliating defeat. This is the part where the kind hearted individuals will attempt to console me with sentiments like, “Jin, haters will always hate”.
Thank you. I appreciate your considerate nature. However, I do believe only the truth can set one free. These days, I feel like a bird with the cage door wide open.
I’ve heard some say with age comes wisdom. That may not always be the case, but sometimes it just may be true.
I look back at these past 10 years at what I’ve accomplished.. or didn’t accomplish. Once upon a time, it use to eat me up inside.
Until God set me free.
God doesn’t care how many battles I’ve won or lost. God doesn’t care how many records I’ve sold or didn’t sell. His love and appreciation for me is not contingent upon my performance in this world. He loves me because I am His precious child.
“Jin, when did you have this sudden realization?”
Firstly, It wasn’t sudden at all. It’s always been a process and it continues to be a process. It was in my darkest hours that I recognized the Lord’s grace, patience and mercy.
As unworthy and undeserving as I was, He still showered me with blessings as only a loving Father would do.
As I can only hope and aspire to do when my son enters this world..
This is what defines the BRAND NEW ME.
My motivation is quite simple now. To glorify God with not only my music, but my life.
Based on the sharing that I come across on youtube comments, tweets and emails, I know that I am not the only one on this journey of self growth and revelation.
I dedicate this song to anyone in search of that brand new you. One that is not perfect but realizes there is a need for transformation and will spend every moment of life striving to reach that goal.
I’ll be the first to admit. In comparison to some of my previous work, this song may not be the most lyrically complex or intricate. It’s not meant to be.
A brand new me wouldn’t be complete without a brand new video. You don’t wanna miss this one. Stay tuned..